Sunday, oh Sunday.
I'm listening to one of the best remixes to Musiq Soulchild's Just Friends right now. Loving it. I woke up late today after spending the whole night and morning talking to both J and the new boy (maybe new boy?) B. Those 7 am crash outs are always fun to deal with, hahaha. I'm slowly making progress with my studying but feeling so stuck on it all. Sigh. Goal. Read one more chapter. Start accounting. I can do it! Tomorrow I'll review slides from work for Cross Cultural Management. I can do it!
MY BROTHERS AND MY LADIES
Hahaa, I hate to start with a little hate, but really, I want to send a big EFF YOU R!!! Wow, I mean... I already lost a lot of respect for you prior to today. Not only did you drop off the face of the planet after cheating on your ex boyfriend for the boy you're currently screwing and NOT dating (after how long now?), the boy you screwed within the day of meeting and then proceeded to lie about hooking up with to me for four months, but you're going to blame your current hiatus on me? Weak man, weak. Saying you're 'afraid' to talk to me and you want me to 'chill out' when you haven't talked to me in a month is really lame. Especially since you ditched to go write what kind of is akin to non-stop porn with some other people, even abandoning little R. That's cold. Really cold. Really, you need to stop blaming the world for your bad decisions, and look to yourself. Something is wrong. Wrong. And I really ain't all that interested in the shit talking you've been doing lately, because I'm an adult and I will have an adult conversation with you if you so choose. Otherwise, suck it, girl. I'm not interested in the high school drama you're trying to raise with me.
WE GONNA TAKE IT BACK
As the end of exams creep up, I'm left wondering - what to do with the free time that's soon about to stir me? I've got several things I'd like to do. Start going to the gym everyday, pick through my music files and get rid of the crap I no longer listen to, start improving my Mandarin, start being more social again. Not that I haven't been, it's just that around exams I become very hermit-like in my habits, only really venturing out of the house to go grocery shopping and to go to work and exams themselves. Things I must soon invest in: the repayments of my credit cards, the repayments of my OSAP, my internship fees, gym membership, tickets to go to New York, and tickets to go to Seattle. With the potential advent of S moving with me to Shanghai, I don't think I need to go back to California. Therefore, seeing C is of higher priority, as well as M. I'm scared. I don't know where I'm going to find this money... but I'm praying my mom might pull through with some kind of "present" along the lines of the 21st birthday gift she gave me when I went to Hong Kong. Relief would be nice... but it's hard for a girl when there's so much to buy! Thankfully, I'm done with clothing shopping and of the like for a while. Time to really buckle down... how unfun!
BY WAYS OF MARVIN GAYE AND STEVIE
I hate being ill, because it drains me of all energy and will to accomplish anything. I'm tired, I lack hunger, and I'm very listless... and Sunday television sucks. I had a bowl of my soup and a bowl of cereal, an exact replication of my total meals yesterday, and likely this sentiment will carry onto tomorrow. Exams are closing in... and I don't know how prepared I am, despite the massive amounts of reading that I am doing. Will it help? Am I wasting my time? Sigh. Tomorrow, I must drop by C's house and pick up the textbook from him so that I may get a closer interaction with the accounting standards work that I'll be forced to go through for my Thursday exam. It can be done! Just another week and I'm done with all of this.
I'MMA MAKE YOU FEEL SO GOOD
